post adolescent angst feelings---different phases--in lyrics

But I'm a creep/ I'm a weirdo/ What the hell am I doing here?/ I don't be long here...
I don't care if it hurts/ I wanna have control/ I want a perfect body/ I want a perfect soul/ I want you to notice/ when I'm not around...I wish I was special...she's running out again/ she run run runs....

All your mental armor/ drags me down/we can't breathe when you come around...

I can't feel the way I did before/ don't turn your back on me/ I won't be ignored/ time won't heal this damage anymore/ Don't turn your back on me/ I WON'T BE IGNORED

You try to take the best of me/GO AWAY

Don't call me daughter/not fair to/ the picture kept will remind me...don't call me...

Maybe someday I'll be just like you/and step on ppl like you do/ and run away the ppl I thought I knew/I remember back then who you were/ you used to be calm/ you used to be strong/used to be generous/ but you should've known that you'd wear out your welcome/ now you see how quiet it is all alone/ I wanna be in another place/ I hate when you say you don't understand/ I wanna be in the energy, not with the enemy/ a place for my head...you try to take the best of me GO AWAY!

There's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface/ confusing/ consuming...

Take everything from the inside/ and throw it all away/ cuz I swear/ for the last time/ I will trust myself with you...

Tension is building inside steadily...

Stuck in my head again/feels like I'll never leave this place/ there's no escape/ I'm my own worst enemy

You love the things I'll say I do/ the way I hurt myself again/ just to get back at you/you take away/ when I give in/ my life, my pride is broken

You like to think you're never wrong/you have to act like you're someone/you want someone to hurt like you

Everyday convince myself/ of everything I can and can't believe/ abused/ confused

daddy was a rollin rollin stone/oh/ he rolled away one day and he never came home

welcome to your solace/ you can use it as a crutch/ stand by while all your dreams get trampled in the dust

sick of the treason/ sick of your lies...frustration...

I tear my heart open/ I sew myself shut...

I don't wanna be the minority...

reach out and touch faith

words like violence/break the silence/come crashing in/into my little world/painful to me/pierce right through me/don't you understand...

Peel me off this velcro seat and get me moving...

This is how I feel/I'm cold and I am shamed/ lying naked on the floor/ illusion never turned/ into something real/ I'm wide awake...

Feelin like a dog in heat/ barred indoors from the summer heat/ lock the door to my own cell...

Life goes by so fast/you only want to do what you think is right/close your eyes/ then it's past/ story of my life...

This isn't about just one person. It's situations, ppl, and my inner battles.

Inspired by: Radiohead, Linkin Park, Depeche Mode, Pennywise, Greenday, Papa Roach, Social Distortion, Sublime, and Natalie Imbruglia