I'm not suicidal, I don't wanna die, but I can't say that I wouldn't mind being sedated lol!
I don't really wanna hurt anyone; I just wanna be alone because nobody understands.
I feel so stupid. I let someone hurt me, I put myself in a situation that I knew would take me down a path that would lead to nowhere, but I was hopeful that everything would be well.
So, now I'm in this hole where the sunshine is so far away that it's faint light barely touches my heart. I'm not hungry, I'm not sleepy, I'm not anything.
God threw me a rope, a ladder, and even gave me wings, but I feel unworthy to take His help because I knew I was walking away from Him and now I realize how wrong I always am when I don't listen to my heart. All along, I thought I was following my heart because my head was screaming at me to turn around lol
I'm hurting so bad that I'm not even functioning at full capacity; I'm on auto pilot. I really don't know how I am going to get out of this funk and all I know is that I have to.
