I'm not feelin all that good lately. Emotionally, I mean. It's frustrating...
I feel like I have to censor myself on FB now...FB, as a smart man put it to me last night, is a public diary of sorts and it's hard not to offend someone if not everyone. Yesterday I posted what was in my head...I was stressed to the max and I needed to vent. Someone else posted a response, which, wasn't all that appropriate AND was more in relation to what their individual situation is like presently. Someone else was deeply offended by this and responded, which in turn provoked a few others to be offended and put off by person B's response. Person A was being supportive, knowing what I've been through...person B is always supportive too, but related to the ultimate offender (who provoked my anger which led me to vent online)...I tried to be diplomatic, seeing both sides, but then deleted the post altogether to avoid contention, as my day had been tumultuous leading to that point, no more drama, man! Geez, let me live and utilitze my right to free speech yet supress yours on my FB page lol...
So now I'm a traitor. I got this text last night from an unfamiliar # telling me to check person B and then another one that Person B is more my family than my own...how stupid and ignorant. Since when is diplomacy congruent to being a traitor?
I love Persons A & B, yet Person A is my sister...I love my sisters more than the rest of my family lol!
But wrong is wrong....anger can make us say things in the heat of the moment that we may or may not later regret. Things said in text do not exhibit tone or meaning very well. They can be taken out of context.
So now my hands are tied. In order to keep my life drama free, I'm gonna have to censor myself, on here and on FB...where the fuck is my freedom?
And I've decided that I'm not gonna be so open anymore with most people. I'm gonna shut up because my words were used to stab me in the back when all I wanted to do was reach out to someone and vent. I'm gonna keep things to myself now....sucks, but I'm tired of drama, chaos, and negativity.
